Graduation day, not mine but my baby boy's
As I finished my PGCE in 2002, full of hope and ready to stride confidently into a career in teaching and “proper adult life”, something happened. I got pregnant. It wasn’t exactly a shock. My husband and I had been together for over three years and had vaguely agreed that children might happen at some point . I just hadn’t realised that some point meant immediately , or that it would arrive just as I’d finished studying for a diploma I feared might now be rendered entirely useless by nappies, sleep deprivation, and baby sick. The joy of impending motherhood and the quiet grief of a paused career tore me in two. I didn’t want my son to carry the weight of my guilt for loving him fiercely and choosing to nurture him, yet I resented, just a little, having to step aside, temporarily at least, from the person I thought I was becoming. But life, as it turns out, rarely asks for permission. That precious baby, who taught me more than any qualification ever could, also quietly dismantl...